GLITTER DUST OF MY MIND. SOLILOQUY.
I chose the seat next to the reserved seat, that way I don't disturb anyone. Then all of a sudden this guy squeezed himself right next to me, sitting too close I had to react. Then he stared at me and smiled. Flashes from the past, scanning scanning thru my brain, from a large storage of people's faces that I have known and met and interacted all these years. And, my brain found a match! I remember him. "How have you been? It's been years." And I stared weird as memories started to form in my head, just in time for me to say back, "Yes it has been 4years since the last time you saw me." He asked me where I have been and never heard of me. "Probably because you aren't one of the people I would like to ever meet, talk nor encounter ever again", I replied with a smirk on my face. He was just a victim of association. He was a good man, but he is a friend of someone that has done something so terrible and damage towards me that I had to forgive them. He was one of his friends and never really wished to be associated with any of them who came to singapore, ask for my help and in the end abused my kindness towards them. " I would not even apologize, I don't even know your name anymore. I reformatted by brain that nothing related to you nor your friends have remained," I told him. And he said back, "I would understand." And he stated his name. And I started with, "I am not very good at being plastic, nor would pretend I would be nice to you. You were one of those people I wished I never in my life see again. When I first arrived in singapore and found a job, you all started asking for help to come here, one after another. I am a true friend when I am needed, you need my help, I give my all. I support, I help. From me being by myself here in 2009, to helping 20 to 30 people, asking for help to get a job here, I have done my part. My house ended up like a party place everytime, because I had too many friends. In the end, I had to spend more on others than myself and they have abused that. I would not do the same mistake again. My life has been most peaceful with out such kinds of people and friends." How do you trust people again? Especially those who have done terrible things towards you? I always speak of forgiveness, I have forgiven these people, but I just prefer not to interact with them anymore. There is no point. |
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And now these three remain: FAITH HOPE LOVE. But the greatest of these is LOVE. I LOVE to write, about LIFE, LOVE, PEOPLE, EXPERIENCE, day to day life and INSIGHS. I love to Travel. I write about experience, culture, highlights and knowledge. May this site serve you well. I will be open for comments and suggestions, as well as topics I could write about. Thank you very much. Enjoy! |