GLITTER DUST OF MY MIND. SOLILOQUY.
I cried my heart to God as I was in pain from a heartache that I struggle with. I cried and called out to God and He answered me. OBEY. Do not be ANGRY, not HATE anybody. All the more I cried, it is so hard Lord, so hard to love not hate people who hurt you. But God corrected me, "I showed you myself as an example. I never taught you to be racist nor for you to judge them because they judge you and racist towards you. I showed you love and mercy. They do not know me, so they do not do what I say. You know me that's why you know my voice and you OBEY ME."
Am I not just talking to myself? Is it just my own voice telling me what to do? Is it you LORD? And I heard. "MY SHEEP HEAR MY VOICE, AND I KNOW THEM, THEY KNOW MY VOICE, and THEY FOLLOW ME. I am the TRUE NORTH. OBEY." And it reminded me of the verse - John 10:27 I cried over and over battling with my own self. "God, I am so hurt! So Hurt my heart even cries." And He replied "I know so well you are hurt, but even in the past, you have been hurt too, yet have I NOT HEALED YOU? Have I not been FAITHFUL to you all these years? Remember that I healed you of all your pains you don't even remember any of it. Why wouldn't you trust me again on this one? OBEY." And I was silent for a long time and now I find myself writing it down so I will remember everything. Everything's starts and ends with the Lord. He is the Alpha and the Omega. To start off, I am not writing a review for a psycho horror film, nor writing an adventure story about "My Precious"- The RING article, I will write about The Ring you wear that symbolizes a lot. The most often question from every person I know asks me since I got married is : What's the Difference now that you tied the knot? To be very honest, everything has changed since I got married. Here are a few areas I could think of that has been impacted by the change : 1 Love - Even before we got married, I always had been filled with so much love for him as my partner. I always think of what is best for him, what makes him happy, what he deserves. Sometimes, I fail to recognize my own happiness, always selfless, for the love of the other. I realized he has been doing that too for my sake and always think of what makes me happy. Now that we are married, we always discuss the real definition of Marriage - ONENESS. We learned to communicate openly of what makes me happy, what makes him happy and we share the happiness. It's as simple as making each other smile, with the little things and the most basic of things. We are always happy every possible time we are together and always excited to see each other smile. 2 Acceptance - We admit we are completely two different individuals. We admit we have a whole lot of differences plus we are born from very different worlds. We were raised differently, educated differently, grew up differently, think differently, perceive things differently and so much culture difference we never could imagine. Before we were married, the differences always trigger misunderstandings and fights. Now that we are married, I have come to complete acceptance that I married such a wonderful person, completely unique and special on his own. He will continually improve to be the best that he wants himself to be, the improvement in each of us will never stop, but I have loved him for everything that he is before I have become part of his life and how we will become in the future. We don't change our partner to suit our demands cause once you change them to how you want them to be, they become not the same person you fell INLOVE with in the first place. Enjoy each other's uniqueness, work together on each other's strengths, labor in love together on each other's weaknesses. You are ONE. 3 Commitment - I have always read a lot of things about couples growing old together, their secret to staying together is that when there is anything broken and anything that needs working on, you don't throw things away but of course try all your best to fix it. Seeing old people walking down streets holding hands despite being 80 years old and frail, doesn't stop them from showing love and care for each other. In the past, my view of things were different. If it doesn't work, I'll do all that I can to save and fix it. Still if it doesn't work, I'll try all means until I exhaust everything possible. In the end, if I get too tired, I just let it go cause I always have this feeling I am better on my own than be entangled in such a mess. I used to be fault finding too, wants perfection and I expect a lot which if it doesn't get met, I get frustrated. Marriage has changed my view on things and when we exchanged our vows, it was very meaningful to me; In sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer, till death do you part. There is no point hurting your husband, it is the same as hurting yourself. Remember, you are ONE. Don't be the first person to ever question your own decision of choosing the person you married. The line "Why did I ever marry you!" during arguments and "I wished I didn't marry you!" must be avoided. Stick to your COMMITMENT With Love, Acceptance and Commitment, only one of the few things in my life that has grown in capacity. Most importantly, I have learned the real meaning of my wedding ring. Whenever you are hurt, upset, angry at their past, or disappointed at things between you and your partner, look at your wedding ring. Imagine that day you vowed to each other when you said, "Wear this ring, as a sign of my LOVE" You chose that person to love and commit to that person for the rest of your life, You chose to love them and co-labor with them for the lifetime you have committed. Your ring will remind you that you love the person so much you married them. You love the person so much that you said
"I DO." So if all else fails, Stare at your RING, Yes, your PRECIOUS RING, know its true significance, its value & understand things until it all comes back to you why you got Married in the first place. |
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And now these three remain: FAITH HOPE LOVE. But the greatest of these is LOVE. I LOVE to write, about LIFE, LOVE, PEOPLE, EXPERIENCE, day to day life and INSIGHS. I love to Travel. I write about experience, culture, highlights and knowledge. May this site serve you well. I will be open for comments and suggestions, as well as topics I could write about. Thank you very much. Enjoy! |