GLITTER DUST OF MY MIND. SOLILOQUY.
My heart aches as I am about to face a reality when I get home. My sister in law is grieving a death, a death of a sister. When I first knew about it, I could not hear the exact words as it was spoken to me. I had to ask one more time to say it again just to make sure I heard it correct. Flashes of scenes from last night came to mind, we were having our life group meeting when she mentioned that her younger sister needs prayers because she is sick. It's hard to say something to console when honestly you yourself is feeling the exact emotion she is holding on to. I tried all my best to be a strong sister and give her encouragement , as well as all our other sisters tried to console her too and give her comfort. I had to ask again to make sure I heard it right. Yes, she passed away. I couldn't react for a moment. I didn't have the right words to say and all that I had in my mind, is "Why Lord, Why? We prayed for her, but there was not even enough time to pray for her and be healed, instead, she was taken away by death as fast as that?" Life has been taken and robbed. Everything just started coming to my head. I was at work, it is tough to react and cry when I have to face clients when you are in distress. I stayed as focused as possible. Then I called my dad to inform of the news. As I heard dads voice, it made me feel like a child again. I told dad everything and that it scared me. But my Dad, my comfort, reminded me why we must not fear death. There may be some times in our lives that we wonder how will it be losing the people we love. Just thinking about it breaks my heart and it makes it bleed. But this is part of life. Molded thru dust, God gave us His breath to live on earth. Then that day comes, our end claims the breath we borrowed from Him, ashes to ashes, dust to dust. What is Most important really is how we lived our lives while we had it and that you remained alive in the thoughts and hearts thru memories with the people left. We often hear people tell us how busy they are, how tied up their schedules are, how they have so less time. No time. No availability.
The fact is, your time and my time is the same. You and me get 24hours in the same day. You and me and the President get the same 24hrs in a day, yet the number of days more in life, that is a mystery. Just like today you have the 24hrs to use, you might not know if you get additional 24hours for tomorrow. In most cases, the time we spend in a day is very intentional. We decide to whom we give our time. We decide which meetings and appointments at work that we accept and approve. We make choices as well and sometimes we even get options. Your availability is a reflection of your priorities and your commitment. For me, my time is one of the most important gifts I can give to someone, because time I can't buy when it runs out. I used to play a lot of computer games in the past and every gamer would know how important it is to buy time to continue life. It is always about finding the right strategy. I used to buy so many life potion and buy for reserve purposes. When the game is over, you can restart over. But real life is not the same. When you are dead, you are dead. Time is very important and whom or what we give our time to is where are treasure is. When we love someone, we always find availability despite how busy one is. This explains why some people have a lot of time set for God and devotion. Some have a lot of time set for work and career. Some has a lot of time set for family, loved ones, their husband or their wife, boyfriend or girlfriend. Some has set so much time for their friends and activities. Keep in mind, your time allocation and availability determines your level of commitment. Availability is a decision you have already set in your mind. It is a matter of the heart. It is a decision you make even before anything comes and you never compromise because it is a priority. That is why when it concerns your main priorities, we always say, "I will make myself available." If you make time for someone and they can't make time for you, then it is their priorities and commitment that needs to be set. Find time for the ones you love, you might not have all the chances. |
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And now these three remain: FAITH HOPE LOVE. But the greatest of these is LOVE. I LOVE to write, about LIFE, LOVE, PEOPLE, EXPERIENCE, day to day life and INSIGHS. I love to Travel. I write about experience, culture, highlights and knowledge. May this site serve you well. I will be open for comments and suggestions, as well as topics I could write about. Thank you very much. Enjoy! |