GLITTER DUST OF MY MIND. SOLILOQUY.
The trip I kind of dreaded, not because of the long travel to get there, but because I am avoiding something I also wasn't sure could be true. Arrived Tubajon, it my fathers hometown. My Mom is from Cebu, we come home a lot more often to Cebu, but going to Surigao is quite rare. My dad and family don't live there anymore, this is my grandparents ancestral home. We flew from Cebu to Surigao on an early morning flight. Then we spent the night in Surigao City before we headed for Dinagat Islands on a 4 hour boat ride. Peaceful like always, the boat docked and I saw that familiar sign, Welcome to Tubajon! Smiles as you see people excited seeing their families get off the boat. Then I saw my aunts' face, smiling and waving, excited to see me again. It's good to be back here again, it has been a while. The last time I stepped foot on this land was during my grandfathers burial August 2001. Hugs, hi, hellos to family, as my aunt introduce me all over again to people I am not familiar anymore.
Then it's time for us to go to the resort we will be staying, we had to walk past my Grandparents ancestral home. But then, all that are memories in my head. I walked by the same lot I used to call Mama and Papas home, I couldn't hold tears, the house burnt down to the ground years ago after both passed away. The memories of that home, photos, books, clothes, everything they owned and worked hard to achieve, burnt to ashes. It has been years since the house burnt down, but only that exact moment it sank in to me, only then I really mourned that we lost it. I let myself cry. I mourn for the memories. I went there not mainly for vacation, but to visit my uncle and his family, who is the Mayor of Tubajon, and to see Daddy's younger Brother & family. Other than seeing family, my other purpose is to see my Grandparents grave again and visit them. So without delay, I wanted to see them. Drove towards the direction of Del mores, where you drive past rice fields and a small bridge, then you will see that mountain where they were buried. Only the two of them are buried there. Their graves are on the very top of that, so you would need to walk and climb a little bit to get there. Finally, I have reached. It was more than emotional for me, good to see you again Mama and Papang. I knocked on the front writings of the grave, shouting, "Mama, I'm here. Honey is here. Papang, I have to come to see you. I brought my husband too. I got married Mama, Papa." It has been a loong time. Tears flowed but I had to wipe it fast and hide it, my husband was there and my aunt, dads younger sister. We lit a candle and brought sky flakes, placed on top of their graves. In this is how it feels when you lose people you love so dear. It hurts inside, it makes you cry longing for those people. But I didn't know it hurts now like how it did when they passed away. They have left the world for so long, but my heart has always been with their memories, because memories with my grandparents has made a lot of impact in my childhood. Like I said in my introduction, I kinda dreaded visiting that hometown, because it makes me cry, remembering my grandparents leaving us so early. Though moments like these makes us love more, and Love family, loving our Moms and Dads while we have them, loving your siblings, loving those that your heart can love while we can, knowing one day, all we would have of them in the end, will be memories. After the visit to the grave, we were taken on a tour to visit the family properties. I left Tubajon with a heart that is happy and fulfilled. I have kept my promise to visit their grave once again. Headed back to Mommy and Daddy's home in Cebu. There are nights I will cry because I miss them again. It has been beautiful having spent time with my closest family. Thanks for the beautiful memories. I love you Mama and Papang, always. I will always be your dearest grand daughter who will travel nautical miles just to see you both. It was all worth the trip just to visit your grave. We will see you once again.
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