GLITTER DUST OF MY MIND. SOLILOQUY.
With all the drug pushers and dealers we see on the news in the Philippines being killed is highlighted now under the new President, I personally understand the trauma, it haunts me even till now. I am a VICTIM OF A DRUG ADDICT. I know & I have seen how people have struggled to get out of it.
I lived in an apartment during my college days where my then exBoyfriend and his buddies, take Drugs together in front of me. My mind was too young to understand, I didn't know the logic why they did. But I remember he would lock me in the bathroom, throw me a book to read while they do drugs. My parents were expats living in Singapore while I was wasting their money on drugs, not for myself. He would use my allowance money & tuition for drugs he buys from our school teacher, who I have heard is now in Jail. All his friends, I knew, were addicts. I remember their faces, that when I see them now, they still scare the hell out of me. At 16, he was a full time drug addict, a drug dealer, an alcoholic, a chain smoker, a sex and porn addict. He travels from Cebu to Dumaguete carrying drugs and marijuana for his friends. He carries an asthma inhaler because Guards let that go when they do security checks, inside that, he carry the drugs. He was a drug dealer, explains why people knock at our doors randomly at any time any day. I had no idea it was that bad, until that night, I looked at this man whose soul probably had left him, with glistening eyes that shine but dry, he smelt like rust, I watched him play Metallica as I was about to sleep. I woke up the next day with him still playing the guitar nonstop with his fingers bleeding, same position, same corner of the same room, no regard of time. It was gruesome. I lived my LIFE not having tried any drugs, but I lived with a drug addict. It's been years since 1997, he is now a Church pastor, but even if time has passed, memories of drugs, drug use, drug abuse by him and his friends, have never left my head. It replays when I hear the word DRUGS. It still give me creeps and goosebumps. The memories of it are traumatising. Do not let your families even go thru such. It will torment you for the rest of your life. Don't let it happen to you, your family, your kids. Don't let it DRUGS rob you of your LIFE. |
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